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im just gonna play dead to hide from life   
04:30pm 03/10/2008
  i NEVER write in this anymore. anyways some kid in clovis threw a drink at my ass because sanger beat them...then he started crying and i gave him a dirty look and left. keith was there...dun dun dun......got the new H.I.M. its really good. i dont care what you think about it, so dont bother. The QB and myself decided to be just friends, and then that idea was torn to bits this afternoon. He says i'm confusing and im like "youre gay" no.....maybe.....ok....thats what yo mama said...HAHAHAHAHa im feeling like a dumbass today. im so glad my dad didnt get a call about all my truancies, oh wait, he did!!!! Saturday school sucks FAT BALLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to have fun and thats all, no attachments, no relationship, no strings, no being tied down, no fighting everyday, no needing to know someone elses feelings, no getting mad when they drink or blaze, no needing to call everyday,no questions about exes, no being mean to eachother, thats all. of course, i realize this will never happen, but i could always just look for it my whole life and die alone. or i could ask the cocky cocky COCKY QB to help me out. I don't wann, but the guys have all turned into boys who are looking for one thing and the ones who actually like you are the ones that you can't like, even though you try. It's a fucking confusing ass world. All the damn emo kids look the same, i stepped on one in Target, i guess they hang out there. Old School is still sooooo damn funny
-LIZZZZ		  
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yep i am pretty much too shy...........   
05:50pm 07/09/2008
 
mood: bitchy always
music: Razorblade Kiss-H.I.M.
Everyone is exactly who they say they will absolutely never be.

thats the truth, even if they deny it, its true. Even me, I would never date a football player, let alone the slutty QB, but look at me.....i'm stupid, i smoke pot too much, i drink way too DAMN much, and im just like my mother.

"you think you know them, but you don't. Bitches are bitches no matter how "tight" you are. And a dick's a dick, too. look at it like that and you'll be fine."-my great aunt!

JUst get drunk with your homies, smoke a bowl now and again, and try to hit that!

Which by the way i'm acting like a school girl when it comes to hitting that, i cant, but i wanna, but what if he's not the one? does anyone have morals anymore? i wish i didn't.........		  
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another check in the peice of shit box   
11:54am 04/08/2008
 
music: you know its gotta be H.I.M.
niggas! my little puppy thinks shes a kitten because i found a kitten and all they do is hang out and chase eachother.

i hate keith so damn much i mean i used to love him but i now believe that it was all bullshit, every damn word, touch, kiss, lie, trusting moments, all shit. listen up kids:

IF YOU THINK YOU'RE IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE, YOU'RE NOT. YOU ONLY CARE ABOUT ONE PERSON AND THAT'S YOURSELF, DONT BEAT YOURSELF UP ABOUT IT, ITS NORMAL, AND HAVE AS MUCH FUN AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN WITH THIS PERSON, JUST ALLOW YOURSELF TO KEEP IN THE BACK OF YOUR MIND THAT IT WILL END, MOST LIKELY UGLY, YOULL SAY THAT YOU CAN BE FRIENDS, YOU MIGHT EVEN THINK IT, BUT YOU WONT, THINGS WILL CHANGE, THE PERSON WILL MAKE YOU SICK AND YOULL FIND YOURSELF TRYING TO IMAGINE WHAT THE FUCK YOU EVER SAW IN THIS PERSON. AND THEN HE/SHE WILL SLEEP WITH MEANINGLESS PEOPLE AND GO ON TO TELL YOU ABOUT JUST TO HURT YOU, BUT IF YOU PLAY YOUR CARDS RIGHT WHILE YOURE TOGETHER YOU CAN, AFTERWARD, USE ALL THIS PERSONS DEEP DARK FEARS AND REGRETS TO RUB WHAT A PEICE OF WORTHLESS SHIT THEY ARE RIGHT INTO THEIR COCKY FACES. OH, AND IF YOU SLEPT WITH THIS PERSON USE THE THREE D'S. Deny Deny Deny. or regret, whichever comes more naturally.

growing up is a bitch but when the going gets tough just pop in a vince vaughn movie and laugh it all away. but dont drink rum......or cabo wabo tequila.......guh.

i "love" you?????
Elizabeth		  
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red hair is only sexy if you have lucky charms   
03:14pm 03/07/2005
 
mood: really confused.
music: uhhhh how about you shutup
oh look im back........the laaaaake was INTERESTING, who woulda thought, i mean we grew up together for heavens sake. alright how is everyone? cool, i cheated on my boyfriend, yay for me this proves that i really am a heartless bitch, but still a virgin. yeah boooeeeeeey. im rick james bitch??????? everytime i ask someone an important, serious question i get that response. we might be getting a new boat, maybe upgrading to a searay, i personally want a house boat to jump of the top of, but i honestly dont see it happening. i fell off the trampoline trying to do a flip into the pool. i guess it wasnt a good idea to move it next to the pool, but now ive got a bad hip, i feel 80. been spending too much time in clovis, thats all. getting a suv so whatever.
im waaaaaay cooler than sarah santoyo, because i actually know how to put friends before boys and return phone calls. put that in your pipe and smoke it!!!!!!!!
someone bought me the lindsay lohan cd and i LIKED it,
Elizabeth


i found a pure white chaton.......her name is marylin. fucking cute		  
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04:33pm 03/06/2005
 
mood: in the mood for some irish luv
music: im only zepped with the led these days
the tatt is looking grosse......seriously. on my way from hanging with my lucky charms in the parking lot, i saw ADRIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!! ironic, yes, but under no circumstances was i not pleased. wish i woulda stopped and said hello, but i had work. MISS ELIZABETH LEEANI DOWNS NOW HAS A FAUX HAWK. IT IS TIZZZZZITE YO'. nicolette keeps begging me and sarah to take her to get a tattoo(copycat) so we shall go this weekend. I don't want him to graduate, but you know what it means???????????GRADUATION SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!kidding.......maybe. im gonna try and call baylie and alyssa and see whats crackin in clovis. i know sarah wont be to happy but she has other things to worry about: EX BOYFRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahahahahaha peace yo!		  
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01:53pm 29/05/2005
 
music: we're led zepped
sarah and i are officially tatted. bff yeeeeeeah




***im still sooooo inlove		  
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time moves too fast when your with me, or could i dare say that im with you?   
05:36pm 20/05/2005
 
mood: frick you man!!!heheheh
music: pink floyd-ill see you on the dark side of the moon bitches
seeing you walk towards me makes me shiver. the chills crawl up my back and travel into my brain and all i can see is you. tunnel vision of your lips makes me bite my own in frustration. i never understood until i realized that i want you with my whole body, and its not going away. sarah says time makes the feeling fade, but baby, its been awhile and everytime i close my eyes, flashes of us touching and smiling at eachother amidst all the people still takes me to that place that only you would understand. the world is too big to give so ill just give you whats left of the sick sad heart thats rusted, torn and tattered, and even though its chrome, you could still see past its selfishness and point it in the right direction. make me feel again.

thats the end of my romance novel, haha...HA! i smile way too much lately. who woulda thought.

school is going good and as the summer becomes less distant i find myself getting more and more sunburned. OUCHY!!!! hahaha
i plan to spend as much time in pismo as my paychecks will allow. everyone is welcome to come, but some of you i cant stand so youll have to find your own ride.		  
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alma matters damn it!   
02:48pm 13/05/2005
 
mood: in love with the fire crotch
music: mr. lead singer of the smiths D-U-H!
so tired of making the mock tails. so, SO tired. i spinned the bottle like a pro and everyone knows it. pina coladas are the shit.


a little poem for the kids

twas the day before saturday and liz was bored, sarah was annoying so i whipped her with a toaster chord.

mmmmhhhhmmmmmmm.......

oh yeah and> ***you guys are babies***

peace yo		  
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hair dresser on fire   
08:33pm 11/05/2005
 
music: jeff buckley
all you mother fuckers should recognize..............that red hair is sexy.

our kids WILL be beautiful with their ramones onsies.

so yeah, fuck you.		  
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the way you make me feel   
12:46pm 29/04/2005
 
music: my own sweet rhymes
alright so we've decided that im a gangster rapper because i rapped this little # like a pro.

i like the way you do that with your hair, your hair
i like the way you make me stop and stare, and stare

the jewelry on your face is freakin hot, HOT
youre a badass little boy because you smoke the pot, POT

if it was up to me wed grow it together
wed be smoking chronic making sweet love forever

ill let you tie me up and do whatever
as long as you say you'll leave never, NEVER

if you help when im scared ill help you when youre drunk
people will ALWAYS look at us because baby, me and you got spunk!

im justtrying to take over for 50 cent ok? dont be mad cuzzzzzzz im cool


sarah has a god damn wooden leg, i swear.		  
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YOU ugly!   
01:07pm 28/04/2005
 
mood: up and coming
music: lots and lots of cow bell
how bout this: I DONT CARE ABOUT THE STUPID GOTHIC PROM IN TOWER SO STOP ASKING.

hes not a drug dealer. he just does them- a lot, and occasionally sales them to close friends. i like the lips. and the ass. and the arms.

i like the truck, its gonna take me places if you know what i mean.

HI JOEY____THANKS FOR THE CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!		  
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reach in with heavy hands, you'll find a heart hard as stone.   
08:22pm 22/04/2005
  eeees meee beeethday chumps. uhhhhh. yep. they just threw me a little party at the table and some girl asked sarah if they could have cake and she said, "no" extremely bitchy. i love that shit. birthday wish: porn, porn, porn. and a giant trampoline. seriously, What more could you ask for? i have realized that i have really no right to complain about adrian because he WAS and still is, a very nice person. he didn't have to get me anything. nice. and that is exactly why i would never EVER get into a relationship. people are too nice to hurt anymore. down pretty low, wind whistles through the trees everytime i cry. And in this shell beats the heart of a whore damned to never lover anymore, anymore. your presents fills the room, your present fills the darkness, your present forms a vacuum. kid im gasping. im gonna leave and take the french exit. ill kiss until kissed. and when i find it ill say, "ill help you when your drunk if you help me when im frightened" *this wont happen until im waaaaaaay older. i wanna have some fun. sheeeeeeeeit. ALRIGHT MY PARENTS ARE LEAVING TOMORROW AND IM GONNA NEED SOME COMPANY. who wants to have some fun?  
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so much cooler than you and your friends COMBINED   
04:12pm 17/04/2005
  yes, yes i now have a job. before i go to work i have to do this: put nice clothes on(duh, hostess), take off black nail polish, take off weed necklace(gift from drew-ahhhhhhhhhsad), take off handcuff necklace(the bestfriend and i have matching ones), put on the ANNOYING thigh highs(guh), and practice my spanish.

its funny how it worked. i didnt go in for an interview, i just walked in and asked if they were hiring and he told me to start right away. theres gotta be a catch. sarah came too, she starts in a week.

speaking of the SLUT(emmanuel-kisser) we saw amittyville horror. i screamed and hid my eyes like a baby.

*side note*
this past week i have noticed that i really dont listen to anyone. im not a good listener. i drown them out and think about something else. except if theyre saying something i dont wanna hear, then i just give the sneer. (insert sneer) but if theyre saying something mediocre i think about other things like bunnies and flowers. nah usually i just think about myself and how much i love myself. lets take a trip to about a year ago when i was called extremely self-centered and knee deep in my own allusions of grandure. i thought he was so out of line for saying that, but he was pretty much right on the money.

-stay away from her, shell just hurt you and ruin your life-
what a bitch for saying that, LET them find out the hard way, its waaaaaaaay more fun.

im not that mean, just realistic.		  
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"hit it, quit it, say you never DID it, unless hes hot-then keep hittin' it"   
08:15am 14/04/2005
  another day gone...

sittin in my livin room pullin on some tubes
no more bubble berry so i settled for the blue
snapped it through and my lungs start to hurt
hold it in long enough it’ll put your dick in the dirt
and people go bizerk tryin’ to get their hands on it
most commonly heard phraze is, "Richter’s got the chronic"
so i’m on it, matter of fact i’m on the top
can’t nobody fuck with me or the KILLA KALI KROPS
like reebox yo i’m un stoppable
and the bowls that i pack are un-pop able
so what you grow all i want to know is what seed
what system you using you got the lights you need
you got a masters degree from the weed ivy leagues
or you a cop without a clue just lookin for a lead

life rolls on
its passin by your eyes real fast
another 24 another day is passed
half of those said we’d never last

hey loc i think its time to grow again fuck it
if you’re gonna grow you better come pick up your bucket
alright im comin through ay yo grab some mountain dew (what)
a pack of zig zags and a couple of brews
i cruise through in the blue too with the basetubes
i too got the big bumps keep my caddy dumped
dont front on this trunk stump on my bangin bus
we’ll erupt on that blunts but turn that shit to dust
dusk to dawn just like the modern day Cheech and Chong
Tim and Dustin on the bong smokin mad amounts of ganj
writtin songs playin pong we was young we don’t belong
stealing cigarettes and bongs we was kids gettin it on
but now we’re both standing strong 2000 and beyond
to dawns at ? used to fight to get along
that was way back then and this is right now
we’re on a mission to get it smoke and bone the hell out

life rolls on
its passin by your eyes real fast
another 24 another day is passed
half of those said we’d never last

there’s 420 ways to blaze
use one it tastes great when you smokin out the vape
mind haze sit back it’ll put you in a trance
grab your sack relax and throw your cap up on the hat rack
throw your feet up recline just chill
we just smoked a eighth of the mother fuckin Kill
for real hold it in now we goin on a ride
the bud inside aint nothing to fuck with
some santa cruz that we got at john’s crib
the crip that you never find around
the reason you can’t find it in your city or your town
because it sits in my bedroom in piles and mounds
we got pounds and pounds that the world dont know about
if i sold it yo they’d all be in the clouds
smoke em out without a doubt
yo its not for the money
its all for the head and gettin stoned with my homies

*nicolette says "fuck the po-lice"

PANSY

Sarah- seriously, we WILL get jobs and we WILL NOT settle for the bitches ANYMORE.

FUCK my asthma its gonna be $-20 ya'll and my brother is coming to visit when my parents are gone.
to tell the truth, ive done some things in the last few days that i wish i hadn't and now my mom found that litle "device" that me and sarah made the other day. she didn't really care because shes a hippie, but if her FUCKASS husband finds out WE ARE DEAD. im insanely bored and OVERLY happy about the WW. now everyoe wants to be my friend. nope.

im at school today, but i probably wont stay. i gotta turn in my studyguide, go to the end of first aid and then im gone.		  
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dopementary-watch it "its allllllllllllll about the weed"   
07:05am 13/04/2005
  birthday next friday-then the house allllllllll to myself for a week and a half. its sad, everyone wants to throw parties but im not into to stupid ass kids that i dont know at my house. thats just not how i roll. i HATE HATE HATE seeing my clovis friends around town. its uncomfortable and all they do is talk shit on sanger which im OKAY with since i do it all the time, but they just cant.

went for a walk and saw karen, she looked so sad and tired i felt sorry for her, and i never feel sorry for anyone.

sarah and i will go job hunting on thursday, so if you see us, say hello.

Hey, sarah! if you bitch about being lonely around me anymore. i WILL kill you-you know i will. I don't really think that youre taking me serious, but i WILL.

i like taking back sunday, but i DO NOT like jimmy eat CRAP, so im torn. if i get the tickets ill go, but im really kind of tired of the kids that show up in simple plan shirts. oh sorry if i hurt your feelings SIMPLE PLAN SUCKS ASS. and nobody talk shit about bright eyes, you guys listen to HIM for god's sake.

show em my motto!
"hit it, quit it, say you never did it, UNLESS hes goodlooking, then you gotta kepp hittin it." can a girl say hit it, or is that a guy thing?		  
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06:06pm 07/04/2005
  "they invented love alright but they still cant make the right plastic or metal or whatever to hold it all in so it just keeps leaking(insert water sounds) all over everything(insert everything) dripping and splashing/making music gives me an ear infection. now my equilibrium's fucked so im holding onto the railing all the way down and im asking for your shoulder on the way up if you help me when im frightened ill help you when youre drunk promise you know nothing and youre someone i can trust nevermind hot DEATH on our heels but never forget it either."
there really is no such thing as love, its becoming more clear to me every single day now. every person is a walking contradiction. theyre all so smug and judgmental, LOOK at yourself, because YOU ARE EXACTLY THE PERSON YOU HATE. thats why you hate them you know, because you see your faults in them. if everyone would stop being so ridiculously vain and hopeful for their version of the American Dream people would be more beautiful. not going to happen. when i went to madison to teach the 6th graders cpr, a little girl asked me why i was sad, and i thought for some reason that i should be unforgivingly honest to her and tell her that i was sad because people are assholes, then she said this: youre a person, does that make you an asshole? fucking wow, i was embarrassed by her innocence. all this time i thought i was so untouched and pure when the truth is, i am a person. i have the capability of hurting every and any thing that comes in contact with me. oh and i never fail to either. i guess thats why i make the self destructing choices that i do. i cant really blame my parents or my teachrs or anyone else for that matter. when it comes down to it, I AM TO BLAME FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAS TO DO WITH ELIZABETH. its all my fault. FUCK sympathy, sympathy is one big fat lie, don't let others pity you because theyre doing it to feel better about themselves.
i will never fall in love with someone because i am exactly everything i described and to be frank, im probably not going to change. i honestly think that no man could ever handle what a little shit i am. I feel i have to say this because i believe that SOMEONE (bestfriend) thinks that im cold blooded and heartless, but im not. i just know that ill hurt that person, well obviously.
for now, ill put on my happy face and ill sway with the wind of society, but all youlittle fuckers should be very aware that i have a really fucked up head and im forever plotting how to seize the world. muhahahahahahahaha. no but really, i miss drew.		  
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10:33am 03/04/2005
 
music: nada surf/bright eyes/misfits-odd, i know
theres like 17 days til my birthday and some GAYass(fuckin third eye blind shirt on) kid sat by me (even though the look on my face was less than pleasent) and went on about 4-20 for like AN HOUR. when this was happening i lit a ciggy (sorry i know the asthma and how it burns my arms, but this kid was LAME)and i got the nerve to look at him and just sort of laugh and tilt my head to the side. AND THEN he smiled this sick smile with bad teeth so i gave chris a please come and get me stare and before i knew it i was walking away. But the fuckass yelled this shit at me: "i don't even know why i bothered, your cold ass probably doesn't even smoke, and if you didn't have your legs crossed so hard we coulda had some fun bitch" well maybe he doesn't KNOW im in the cannibus club(haha) and maybe he doesn't KNOW that i think every fucking human being is a peace of SHIT. And cold? people say a lot of things about my ass, but never COLD. what is that shit?
I was looking through my cds and came across Atomic Bomb.......i don't know what i was thinking. Sarah and i have come to the conclusion that i have a problem. i'll get a good movie and fall asleep to it every night for like 2 weeks and then i'll never watch it again and move on to a different one. it waaaaaas vanilla sky, THEN i was introduced to suicide kings, THEN it was american beauty, and NOw its Closer. pretty good stuff. oh wait there was a requiem for a dream period also.

i gotta go bitches im needed art the racquet club, oh god its really hard to teach tennis to 85 yr old stuck up women.
*if i could ask people 2 favors it would be-if your stupid can you please not breed with other stupid people, and get your kid some braces.		  
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Sarah-BACK OFF BRIGHT EYES IS MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!   
07:41am 31/03/2005
  well im about ready to type my thesis on the dangers of breast augmentation, irony? I dont really feel good today, but thats probably because NO ONE is here because of that tour last night. GAY. if i wanted to see guys that looked like girls id go back to Clovis High. unseen, eh. right now Bright Eyes is idolized.
im going to get a new camera today, and i've decided that im only going to video tape beautiful things, meaning NO people. whatsoever. just leaves, and water, and bags hahaha little American Beauty for ya'.
Alright bitches i'm bored and at school so this really isn't fun for me(and the guy next to me is trying to read it. fucker) would you look at that, he stopped.
on a bright eyes sidenote, I will never EVER need a parachute, because I'll never EVER fall hard for you.
*and to my memorable conversation last week that has kept me up at nights: teach me everything you know because i want to be a pro. shit son im like a poet. hahaha
-----Elizabeth LeeAnn		  
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05:37pm 09/03/2005
  i wish i was a little bit taller i wish i was a baller i wish i had a rabbit in a hat.......i for the life of me can't figure out what made that pop into my head.

i'm gonna take a bath tonight and think about the people that mean the most to me-WHOA-in a non-sexual way, except for 1. i just like to take baths i don't know what is wrong with me. i just like to put in waaaaaaay too much bubbles. also, its awesome to listen to marvin gaye while bathing-so relaxing. this weekend might be dumb, i don't know. i miss him and so does Tink. this too shall pass, i said i'd wait and i definitely will.

my hip hurts from when i ran into the door. i shall live through the day.....

until tomorrow,
Elizabeth LeeAnn		  
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04:51pm 02/03/2005
 
music: uuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the vandals?
a tough little week just got better 24 hours ago. ps thank you joey. if youre reading this i want you to know i really am thankful, you might not know why but the rumors ARE true, youre kickass.

grown up: where do babies come from?
little kid #1: the need for welfare
little kid #2: irresponsibility
little kid #3: B-U-T
little kid #4imitating a grown woman: Can i just say something? i am a lady and i would like to remain a lady
-it was the best thing i have ever seen

also, The Sun ALso Rises is a good book contrary to what everyone told me before i read it. bitches
i'm pretty confident that my latest in class essay is off the heezie

PAYce!
Elizabeth LeeAnn		  
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